Pain in the Kingdom

Sometimes life is just hard – stuff happens (or, more realistically, doesn't happen) and you don't know why, or even if there is a reason for anything ever happening.

And sometimes the 'being hard' stops – sometimes things sort of even out or settle into place, or maybe what you were waiting for finally arrives.

But maybe it doesn't stop.  Maybe it continues.  Maybe it goes from being a phase of your life and becomes life itself.  You want to leave, to go away; to go away from yourself.  Everywhere seems to be the promised land except the spot where you are standing.

For example: Maria has now been struggling with depression for over 5 years
(even writing that down hurts me)

I've had a pretty rotten few years in many ways, but I can't begin to imagine just how hard it's been for her to keep putting one foot in front of the other, let alone attempting to look to the future with hope and faith.

I am so proud of her, and wish there was more I could do to bear her burdens.  I wish I could whisk her away to a place where everything would finally work.

And so we ache and groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling… so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by LIFE.

We are waiting.  Waiting for the Kingdom.

Some Pharisees asked Jesus when God's kingdom would come. He answered, "God's kingdom isn't something you can see.  There is no use saying, 'Here it is!' or 'Look! It's over there!'  The Kingdom of God is within you."

Life is not about being hard or being easy, being a success or a failure, being good or bad, being happy or sad.  It probably will include all of those things, at one time or another, but it's not about any of those things.

It's not about what makes me feel nice, or fulfilled, or whatever.  It's not about me, full stop.  Life is fundamentally about being in the Kingdom of God.  And, apparently, the Kingdom of God is within me.



3 thoughts on “Pain in the Kingdom

  1. I think God honors are being real before Him…in Psalm 62:8 says “Trust in him at all times, O people;
    pour out your hearts to him,
    for God is our refuge.
    I pray for you and my honey bunny daily and feel sure God continues to work all things for good. Life is daily filled with burdens, challenges, disappointments and it is also filled with the possibilities that exist only because we are His children, with His promises and access to His kingdom, as you mentioned! I have not yet found any easier way to walk this walk other than daily dying, or attempting to, myself trying my best to keep the Cross before me. Thank God that His precious Holy Spirit is there to lift us up when we can no longer lift up ourselves! Love you!

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